I know what you're thinking, and this is not some announcement or update or anything like that. Believe me, when I find her, everyone will know about it. I will never be able to contain that kind of information, haha. Following after God can be and often is very costly. Scripture in fact says that you should take up your cross daily and follow Jesus. Following in this area has easily been the most difficult of my life, and I would argue that it is one of, if not the most difficult areas to surrender to God in anyone's life. I think this is because it flies in the face of everything we have seen in our world growing up, or even been taught in school or at home. We are supposed to grow up and when we are a certain age, we are supposed to have our own family. I think there are somethings that are easy to give up, like listening to bad music or seeing bad movies, but giving up dating and relationships is giving something up that affects the rest of your life. Giving up the thoughts, dreams, ambitions of that nature can be very difficult, especially outside of the grace of God.
Not having dated a whole lot previously does make it a little easier to give this up. I don't have to change my lifestyle a lot in order to surrender in this area of my life. I think I have maybe been on 2 or 3 legitimate dates, which I will not even begin to get into (I know you all are soooooo shocked to hear that, hahahaha). I consider myself lucky that I haven't been hurt in a relationship like that before, and I don't ever intend to get hurt.
It is kinda difficult to live your life with the thought that you could have met your perfect match, know that the time is not right at this moment. My perfect match, the one God has picked out for me, could be sitting right next to me while I am writing this blog for all I know. Do you ever wonder that? Do you ever wonder if you have already met your perfect match and just haven't connected the dots? I just have no way of knowing. Maybe if you have some way of knowing, you could tell me? It is so enormously difficult to wait on God, but with His Grace, I can do it.
I also realize that I am no where near ready for her, even if she comes along into my life, or if she already has. I have a little ways to go...
I just hope she can wait for me too...
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haha Paul! I don't know what to say about this post ;P
ReplyDeleteIt is true that it's hard to give up this area completely to God. and just to believe in Him that He will bring the right person for us.
Waiting patiently in His grace...... =)
Paul! i know exactly how you feel! it's hard for me not to make marriage an idol. i constantly lay it down :) the season of singleness is such a gift, though. we have so many opportunities now that we won't have when we're married. it's so cool to think that in this season, we have the potential to spend ALL of our affections on Jesus - in the future, those affections will be split with our future spouse! i'm learning how to wait well - to fall more in love with Jesus (because this is what makes a successful marriage!) and to prepare myself for Him and for my future husband. i also wonder sometimes if i've already met him.. but like you, i'm not anywhere near ready yet! i pray for him and my future children whenever i think about them :) it warms my heart to see others out there waiting for God to bring their future spouses to them instead of taking matters into their own hands!
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